a fuzzy screen grab from my Finnair flight video clip (2019) ...

... a frame from one of my favourite video clips of her here, which illustrates her irresistible deep loving smile I was addicted to. We were flying to Ivalo, Lapland (January, 2019). Do watch this clip among the Videos: "on a Finnair flight to Lapland ..." Her sweetness comes through wonderfully in the video clip. We managed to be together for about 19½ years, of which 15-17 were cloudless, but for me it always felt as if I had known her since my childhood. This is the video clip I can watch least easily, as I can wave back only to my computer screen, when I would love to just walk over and hug her. The gentle fragility of her aura breaks my heart. I miss her not because she left me all alone - I missed her even when she just went to the next room. There have been people who have contributed to my life positively, there have also been "loves", but even without disawowing any of them, in my whole adult life there has been just ONE single person, who truly penetrated my every cell, permeated my whole being and defined my life to its meaningful roots without staining my soul, and that was Thelma, and will stay so, whatever the few years left to me may bring in the future.